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Rohit shekhar tiwari passes away

Today was disastorous day for me. Day started with a normal tone infact with a very good tone. Yesterday was very hot but today morni g it was a cloudy weather and cool breeze was blowing. I was brishing my teeth and i listen the sound of dhol, drums along with kirtan. It was sounding pleasure. Day start with a good tone , i completed my routine, tejas goes back to school . I go to market and complete my work. Then get back to home. At evening i was relaxing in my room then suddenly my papa tuned on the tv news channel. There i listen a bad news . Rohit shekhar tiwari, the son of nd tiwari is dead . The reason is told in news that he got a heart attack. But i suddenlt doubt that may be his father or any enemy may have his hand in this. But later things getting clear to me that it was really a heart attack. Rohit shekhar tiwari was son of poltician N d Tiwari. I first come to know about him some 10 or 12 year before through a news channel. A boy standing outside of court premises i...

Today was forcefully colorful celebration

Today was holi. My son tejas was sleeping beside me. Normally he wake up near about 7 am but today he woke up at 10 am. No, dont think he wants to avoid the day or skip the celebration instead he was super excited for the day of holi. He was saying from last one week, that on holi , he would do that, rub color all over me, and throw water on me. He woke up at 10 and gently rub some gulaal oe colour on cheeks and then go to outside for celebration holi with neighbors. I was not excited even my routine for festivals is that festivals make me norvous. I feared that anything wrong will happen when i try to celebrate. So i tried to remain quite and silent. Bit just on the name of festival,  the d ay was colourfull to me

You will have to accept, what god gives you

Today i went to joriya sahib gurudwara. The hola mohalla festival was being celebrated in the Gurudwara premises. There i see many couple, may be not perfect couple but still they were couple. Many of the housewife like women were sitting and listening the religious teaching. I was feeling jealous as whole people looks normal there, means everybody is there with kids and their partner. I have no partner and my son is getting only mother's love not father's love. I asked to god, why i am alone. What was my sin. I was faithful, cooks well and never argues. Moreover i always worships you bit still i get divorced. God smiled and replied, you are living a special life because you are a special human and strong women.only you can do thos. I again make a question," god,  You are glorifying the my loneliness saying that i am brave. It  seems like we call a physically disabled person as specially able person. A person who don't have arm or leg , and we glorify their min...